Just an open letter for you.
I know we never really had the chance to actually say our goodbyes but, I had to leave early. You know I couldn't stay. I had somewhere I needed to be, and as much as I hate to leave just like that, this chance was once in a lifetime. And I knew that after that day, I don't know when I'd see you again. It's weird to think that everything's ended. You're ready to take a new path in your life, go and explore more. But, I'm here. Still on the same road you once took, just watching you go on with you life and chase your dreams. Although it hurts to know that you'll be far away from me now, I just have to accept whatever happens in the near future, to you and I (if there's even a 'you and I'). Because, who am I to stop you from getting what you want? I'm just another one of your closest friends. Nothing extraordinary too, might I add.
But, what scares me is that one day you'll suddenly, and completely, forget about me. A friend you've had for so long. I know I can't keep you from making new friends and meeting new people. That's just a natural happening. But, what scares me the most is that one day, you'll find someone who can replace me. Someone, better. I just don't want you to go away. No, not physically. But, in my heart and mind. I don't want myself to get lost in the back of your mind, together with all the memories we had shared. I don't want that to happen.
You know, I love you. I really do. You mean so much to me and I just don't know if I'll be able to get over the fact that one day, I'll just be a name to you. But hey, I got over my feelings for you. So maybe I can get over whatever may happen soon. But I just wish that we'll still have our little talks, our inside jokes, and all that. I really do hope you won't forget me. Because I sure won't forget you. And I think I'll miss you forever.
- for Buttermilk :-)) -